Gerdie Notes – One Day At A Time bio picture

Gerdie writes music and photographs people amongst other things. 
She is adventurous and pours her whole heart out on her passions. She
tries to keep her life sedated but it just doesn't happen.  Life can go
fast if she doesn't put a break on it.  So instead, God forced her to
slow down.

How so?  Gerdie was stricken with Ampullary Cancer (Pancreatic Cancer) last March 2008.  After a Whipple procedure, the malignant tumor was removed.  However, at the onset of 2009,  cancer recurred and now, it is on stage 4.

Gerdie puts her faith in Jesus Christ, trusting Him for what is about to come
her way. With the advent of cancer in her life, she has learned to
cling tighter to Jesus, who holds her life.  She knows she can't live
without Him.  She is praying for a miracle as the tumors have increased both in size and in number. 

It is a tough journey but by walking her life with Jesus Christ, she simply continues to live literally, One Day At A Time.

Photo by Erron Ocampo.

The Good Fight

“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.”

- 2 Timothy 4:7

May 8, 2010 (Saturday). Gerdie had her dextrose taken and it was Nurse Sharon who inserted the IV needle on her dextrose. The dextrose served as a food supplement to obtain adequate nutrients that her frail body needed. A one litter NSS sodium chloride diluted in vitamin B, and a 500ml of Aminoloban were mixed with dextrose. Those were the primary supplements Gerdie had to take for 12 hours. By the afternoon, she had urinary difficulty so I gave her diuretic meds like Lasix and Aldactone, which were prescribed by Dr. Tiambeng. But still, she wasn’t able to urinate that her tummy and lower back became swollen due to water retention.

May 9, 2010 (Sunday). Gerdie’s swollen tummy caused her great discomfort. I immediately called Dr. Tiambeng to inform her about Gerdie’s grueling situation. The doctor told us that we can admit her in the hospital. I also suggested putting a catheter on her. So by noon, I brought Gerdie to the ER of Cardinal Santos, where her catheterization was performed. Thank God! The procedure was successful!

May 12, 2010 (Wednesday). Before leaving the hospital, I decided to flush the bile out of her body. That’s when I saw blood coming out. I told the doctor about it and she advised us to stay. Gerdie had an internal bleeding. The next day, she had undergone a blood transfusion of fresh frozen plasma; four bags were used (Thank you for all those people who donated!). After the transfusion, she was given an anti-allergy med to avoid any complications. Unfortunately, it only made her condition worse as she suffered from breathing problems. Because of that, an oxygen therapy was prescribed to her. She repeatedly said, “Parang unti-unti na kong pinapatay.” After six hours, Gerdie felt better and slept.

May 16, 2010 (Sunday). Gerdie experienced severe back pain that even her morphine and IV med didn’t help. Because of the agonizing pain, she was panting; she can’t breathe! Gerdie had another oxygen therapy and her heartbeat was monitored as well. She was sweating profusely! I didn’t know what else to do so I called Dr. Que (Dr. Henry Lu’s reliever). Sadly, her efforts didn’t help Gerdie’s condition. “I thank the Lord for the wisdom He gave to Dr. Tiambeng” (This was often said by Gerdie). If not for Dr. Tiambeng’s prescribed IV (ZOMETA 100cc), Gerdie’s pain wouldn’t be relieved. Even if it costs P19, 545 per shot, it didn’t matter as long as Gerdie would feel better. After 15 minutes, she felt well. The day after, Dr. Tiambeng apologized because of the expensive amount of IV she prescribed. But Gerdie thanked her instead. That’s when I knew her cancer had already reached her bones.

May 18, 19, and 20. For three consecutive days, Gerdie underwent a state of depression. She had a spiritual battle. She heard voices convincing her to commit euthanasia. The three of us (Aylene, Gerdie, and I) didn’t do anything, but pray. She asked me to sing, “Lord I lift your name on high” over and over again. In those days, I continued to intercede and asked help from our Christian friends to pray with me. To all Gerdie’s friends, thank you for all your prayers. If it weren’t for you, perhaps Gerdie would not have believed me. It even came to the point, where Gerdie began to doubt God’s love. Praise God! He had given me the wisdom I needed at that moment. I opened the Bible and read Philippians 4:6-9, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” God’s promise is clear; we just need to focus on Him alone. That same day, I decided to text Dan Cura. Thank God! He was available and didn’t hesitate to come. He explained to Gerdie the meaning of the said verse.

Indeed, God works in mysterious ways. Those three days were tough! I promised Gerdie not to cry, but I really can’t help it. Gerdie once told me that I am her strength. So even if it’s so hard, I had to be strong. When she was diagnosed with cancer, I promise to myself not to leave her no matter what. As her sister in Christ, I must be filled with God’s words. God is always there for me, He never left me in times of trouble. To God be the glory forever and ever! As her best friend, I had to understand her pain and sufferings. I’m a sister, a best friend, a caregiver, and a driver to her. I even made a decision on her behalf when it comes to her health concerns.

It was really a humbling experience. God had given me everything I needed: wisdom, strength, and understanding. I love Gerdie so much that I’m willing to help her in every way I could. And God had been there with us all through out.

During Gerdie’s three-day battle with depression, she didn’t sleep. At some point, I felt like giving up. I cried my heart out to God and asked him to take care of her. Also, in those three days, Gerdie didn’t want to accept visitors, even her own brother. Gerdie wanted silence that she refused to listen to Christian music as well. So I asked all my Christian friends to pray for her. Some even prayed over the phone. Thank you!

May 20, 2010 (Thursday). Gerdie hadn’t slept for days. I begged her to sleep because she needed it to regain her strength. And then she asked me, “Ano bang ibig sabihin ng tulog?” So I explained it to her. I stayed beside her until she fell asleep (Gerdie slept until Saturday).

May 23, 2010 (Sunday). Gerdie spoke to me. She said, “Terry, I want to go. Hirap na hirap na ko.” Upon hearing that, I cried uncontrollably. We prayed and I told her that I’m willing to let go and accept God’s will for her. I was still hoping that God will make a way, but what I wished for didn’t happen. However, I still praise God because I know that His plans for Gerdie were better than mine. The following day, Gerdie refused to take all her medicines and her food.

May 24, 2010 (Monday). It was Gerdie’s 44th birthday. Everybody wants to visit her; still she refused to accept visitors. So I read the greetings from her phone instead. And she nodded in appreciation.

May 26, 2010 (Wednesday). Gerdie said, “Nanghihina na ko Terry.” And I replied, “Hindi ka kasi kumakain eh.” She wondered, “Ay, diba ako kumain?” For the first time, she took two glasses of Nutren. And after that, she asked Aylene about the time. Aylene said that it was 9:30 and then Gerdie kept on asking her the same question over again. By 10:30, I prepared myself to sleep. I usually woke up at 2am, so that Aylene could rest. I told Gerdie, “Sleep na tayo ha?” And then Gerdie smiled at me. Few days had passed since the last time I saw her smile. So when she finally did, I was ecstatic!

By 11pm, Gerdie suddenly called Aylene and told her if she could reduce the length of a legal-sized bond paper. I answered her and told her that it was possible. And then I asked if she’s going to use it for faxing. It took a while for her to answer. She just told me to write the number two on the paper. At that moment, I had a hunch that she might be preparing herself to bid goodbye. But I didn’t want to think about it so I just tried to brush aside the idea. By 11:30, Aylene woke me up because Gerdie was out of breath. I was aghast! So I hurriedly gave her morphine for her to feel well. She felt a bit better, but it didn’t last so I called the nurse if she could increase Gerdie’s oxygen. I reached for her hand and then Gerdie told me, “Tara na alis na tayo.” I asked her, “San tayo punta?” She replied, “Doon sa inyo. Halika na kasi. Tara na kasi.” Aylene and I looked at each other wondering what Gerdie was thinking. I held her hand tightly and then Gerdie asked me if we needed a truck. So I asked her, “Sino bang kinakausap mo?” She replied, “Ikaw, sino pa?” After that, I began to cry and told her, “Sige na Gerdie pwede ka ng umalis, okay na ko don’t worry about me. Need mo ng magpahinga.”

I asked her if she wanted to pray. Gerdie nodded and then I let her go. Later on, Gerdie defecated with blood and her BP became lower. I told Aylene to call kuya and the family. They bid farewell to Gerdie, but we still changed her diapers three times because she also urinated with blood. By 12am, Gerdie was already on her last legs. I saw tears rolled down her eyes. Each of her relatives went on her bedside to say goodbye. Even Katrina, Gerdie’s close friend went there for her. Around 5:30 in the morning, kuya and his family went home.

While Gerdie was sleeping, I whispered to her ear and said that I love her and I will take care of myself and Aylene. I told her not to worry about us anymore. In my heart, I have peace because I know that Gerdie is already with the Lord (Gerdie died at 7: 17 am). I also thank God for he has given me an opportunity to know a great person like her. Gerdie has been good to me and I will never forget her kindness, loyalty, trust, and love.

In behalf of Gerdie and Aylene, we want to extend our deepest gratitude to all those people who helped Gerdie in every way. Thank you for supporting her financially, for encouraging her, and for loving her unconditionally. We also want to thank all the members of “Harvest,” the pastors, and all Gerdie’s classmates in Poveda. Our deepest gratitude goes to you all. This is for the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. May our God Almighty bless you abundantly!

“Oh the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person. Having neither to weigh words nor measure thoughts but pouring them all out like chaff and grain together-certain that a faithful hand will keep what is worth keeping, and with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.” – George Eliot

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Shoutout 2

I’ve been struggling with an edema for the past week.  It IS BIG.  :(   I really wish it would go but unfortunately, I have to deal with it everyday.  It’s because I have low albumin and have to have 6 egg whites.  After my Cardinal Hospital experience, I had this one.  It subsided.  But this time, it didn’t.  Please pray that this time it will.  I really don’t know what to do.  Yaya Aylene has been at it but it just won’t subside.  :(

Anyway… hope all is well with you.  Take care.

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It Has To Be Heaven

I’ve got my mind a bit clear the past two days.  So, while I’m still at it, I just like to write a small note about what I’ve been thinking of.  And that my dear readers, is HEAVEN.

A lot of friends have been curious about my acceptance of the whole cancer illness.  Why does it seem easy on my part?  Well, to tell you the truth, it isn’t.  Most definitely, it isn’t.  But you see, there are a lot of important truths that I hold on to and it’s my belief in these truths that give me the courage, the strength and hope to press on.

So what are they?  For one thing, I am single.  Knowing that cancer is a terminal illness, for most part, being single takes off the worry that I’ll be leaving children and a husband behind.  Though God has provided me with a mini-family through Yaya Aylene and my best friend cum sister-in-Christ, Terry, technically, the people I’ll be leaving are my brother and his entire clan.  :)   And I trust the Lord that He’s got them in His care.

Because God provided me with my mini-family here at home, I am recipient of God’s loving kindness through them.  I can never imagine the patience, the dedication, the loyalty, the love, the care, the compassion, both Terry and Aylene have been extending to me since day 1 this thing happened.  They are sticking to me closer than a sister and I am overwhelmed by this.  Of course, being single has its drawbacks and if it weren’t for my brother’s and his family’s support together with Terry and Aylene’s hands-on care for me, I really wouldn’t make it this far.

Then the most important person of all, is the hope of my salvation.  Jesus Christ.  As you know, I am a Christian, forgiven of my sins, saved by the blood of Christ when He died on the cross for me.  He promised that if I confess my sins, receive His forgiveness and ask Him to be my Lord and Personal Savior, that I will have eternal life in HEAVEN.  Yes, heaven.  Not just a peaceful place out there in limbo.  It must be heaven!  :)

Salvation comes ONLY through Jesus Christ and no one else.  Believing in that with my whole heart, lifts of the fear of dying and not knowing where to go when I die.  The bible says it, Jesus promised and I believe it.

Many people, when they are faced with death, crumple in fear.  To tell you honestly, I did go through the same.  My assurance of my salvation was shaken just a tiny bit.  But I bounced back when I truly put my trust in Jesus’ promise.  Lord forgive me for ever doubting but yes, now, all doubts are gone.  Not because of anything I have done to earn that salvation but because eternal life is a gift from God in Jesus Christ.  And I received that eternal life when I, again, accepted His gift of salvation.

I mean, going to heaven shouldn’t be a mystery, should it?  I don’t think it is within God’s personality to keep you guessing all your life where you’ll spend eternity.  God isn’t that way.  From day 1, He promised heaven to those who receive Him as their Savior.  So why be baffled?  The next step is for us.  Are we going to receive Him?  Are we going to accept Him as our Savior?

There are only two places to spend eternity, actually.  Heaven or hell.  So please choose wisely?  ;)

So yes…  that is my point.  It has to be heaven.  And not everyone will enter heaven, sad to hear or say.  So, while the opportunity is presenting itself, I hope and pray that you will ponder on this truth.  Receive forgiveness, receive Christ, receive eternal life.  It is a gift from God in Jesus Christ.

Jesus said, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.” — John 14:6

I pray that one day, I will see you in Heaven.  Remember, not just a quiet and peaceful place out there.  That doesn’t exist.  Only heaven and hell does.  And I fervently pray that when the time comes, I will see you in Heaven… only in Heaven…  It has to be heaven.  :)

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Be Ready, Be Faithful

I have been meaning to share this preaching video of Pastor Peter Tan-Chi of Christ’s Commission Fellowship with you.  Unfortunately, I couldn’t find a code to embed the video here on my blog.  So, instead, I’ll just provide this link.

http://www.ccf.org.ph/2010/03/be-ready-be-faithful/

You may choose to listen from there or download the video itself.  But I highly recommend that if you have time, please watch it.  It is a powerful message on how we can be prepared to meet Jesus when the time comes.

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Shoutout

I was thinking…  Perhaps it would be good to convert my blogs into some kind of ’shoutout’.  Meaning, short shouts just to let you know how I’m doing.  I know I’ve been keeping more updates with facebook.  But that’s because it is oftentimes difficult for me to sit too long facing a laptop.  I usually update my Facebook status with my phone.  Easier for me…

So… what should my first shoutout be?  Well, to put it honestly, I really need your prayers.  I’ve been sad because I am losing muscle.  I’ve been wanting to eat a lot.  Believe me…  I really do.  But the cancer cells.  They’re beating through my nutrition.  :(   I’m pushing myself to get me to be stronger.  I am feeling weak lately.  So I’m fighting.  By God’s grace… and He knows I am really… aiming to fight the physical weakness.

Pray for me please?  For physical strength.  Yes, the first shoutout!  :D

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Mini-2010 Update

Hi readers…

I thought of making this mini-update so you may know what’s the latest on my side and so I can go over writing my thoughts.  I’m figuring that time may not be on my favor often so I better get this done and over with.

November  ‘09 – bile bag was done.  PTBD as they call it.

January ‘10 – bile infection started

February – Morphine drip given at Makati Medical Center and been on the drip since.  Currently, I’m receiving 10mg/hour and 10mg as needed.

March – bile infecton and was rushed to Cardinal Santos for treatment.  Been weak since but been fighting to gain strength.

end of March – I’ve crossed 6months since my visit with Dr. Tiangco.  Praise God!  :)   He’s still using me.  Though this year is really very crucial, I know the Lord will always be with me.

April – at my thinnest.  I do not wish to lose more muscle.  :(   It is difficult specially when it can be cold.  The air seeps through the bones and it hurts.  I’ve finally said goodbye to working at GMA Network.  I just can’t make it anymore.  Not with my condition.  Oftentimes, I feel exhausted.  That’s why I’m shouting out for physical strength.  My stamina is weaker.  :(

My new Oncologist is – Dr. Malu Abesamis-Tiambeng from Cardinal Santos.  I’ve transferred altogether.  She’s the one handling my palliative case now.

There…  :)   Thanks again for praying for me.  I must retire now…  My back is hurting.  God bless you and the Lord’s presence ever be so close with you right now.  :)

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Adventure In Singapore

Like I said, I owe you the bile story.  :) But what does Singapore have to do with it?  Well, it all began in Singapore and this is PART ONE.  ;)

Last October and November, I was having my grandest time after all the treatments I’ve been getting.  Since I chose to live my last days without chemotherapy, I treated myself to a lot of lunch dates and filled my tummy with good food.  ;)   On top of that, I planned a trip to Singapore with my childhood friend, Katrina.  We were going to stay at Charlene’s (another childhood friend) house and planned to paint the town red.  Ooops!  Just kidding. ;)

Unfortunately for me, I missed a lot during the vacation.  A few days before the trip, I’ve been having short episodes of fever.  Just one tab of paracetamol and I’m well again.  Since I was under pallative care at that time, Dr. Liza Manalo (of Medical City) guided me through text, what to do.  And as always, it was just a tab of Tempra forte and I was good and ready to go.  However, at that time, she shifted me to morphine, of which, I think was too strong of a dose for me.  I was very groggy then and I was having bad dreams.  She said that I will get used to it after awhile and I had to wait it out till the drug didn’t affect my sleep too much.

Anyway, the night before Katrina and I left for Singapore, I had another short episode of fever.  And as always, I asked Dr. Manalo what to do and asked for clearance if I was fit to travel the next day.  She found no reason why I shouldn’t go and since I was really excited to take this trip with Katrina, I went for it. Who wouldn’t anyway?  ;)

On board the plane, my back hurt and I had fever.  Talk about, when it rains it pours.  :(   But I knew that the Lord wanted me to take that trip and so God was so gracious to me and Katrina, that eventually, we got out of Singapore airport without any form of hassle.

The whole of the trip, I really wasn’t feeling well. I had on and off fever and was groggy because of the morphine I’ve been taking. I even had to forego exploring places.  I was texting Dr. Manalo all the time, what to do, what to take, etc. etc. etc.  Katrina was worried sick and so was Charlene.  I was praying that the Lord will get me through the whole trip till we get back to Manila because I didn’t want my friends to worry too much about me.

I was pleased with the trip despite everything.  I had bonding time with my childhood friends which I deeply treasure.  I had barbeque time with their families.  Pity me.  I couldn’t eat the delicious food!!! Bummer.  Charlene made this great salad and I couldn’t even eat much of it.  Three to four pieces of sliced lettuce and that’s it!  I couldn’t eat – period.

In the afternoon, we went to Singapore Flyer, the world’s largest Giant Observation Wheel where you could see the whole of Singapore and a glimpse of Malaysia and Indonesia.  It was a breathe-taking experience as we stood up watching.

Good thing my taste buds cooperated when we went to this fine Chinese restaurant in Ion Orchard, I think. ;)   Gosh.  I couldn’t remember the name of the restaurant.  Probably because the dimsum was so exquisite,  ;) it makes you forget about a lot of things.  But yes, I’m glad we went there.  That is one Chinese restaurant I cannot forget.

I was starting to look yellow at that time.  I just didn’t mind it.

On my last day in Singapore, we went to Jurong Bird Park.  As a former bird breeder, this place was just hard to miss.  :)   It was paradise!!!  And because my friend Katrina wanted me to enjoy the visit to the park, we rented a wheel chair and she wheeled me the whole time we were at the park.  Sweet!  :)

Finally, it was time to go back to Manila.  I was already, yellow.  All the time I was in Singapore, I texted Dr. Manalo and made sure she knew everything that was happening to me.  She wanted me to go straight to Medical City as soon as I landed in Manila.  That was the plan.

Upon reaching Medical City and finding out how expensive all the tests will cost, I backed out and asked to be sent home.  I did all tests the next day but in a cheaper establishment.  I managed to get all the tests done the following day.  And am sorry, I have to cut the long story short.

I had to be admitted and have the bile bag with me again.  So, since November, I have this bile bag attached to me and by God’s grace, it’s still here.  :)

Sorry… I really need to cut the story so I can go one blogging about other stuff.  I know I’ve been delinquent in writing but what I realized is that, I am unable to blog now specially when I don’t feel well.  Which, to some of you, I know, are very aware of lately.  :(

Anyway… so there’s the bile story.  :(   Still, thanks be to Our Lord Jesus Christ!  I am still alive.  :D

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Still Rockin’! Still Rollin’!

It’s been two years now since I was rushed to St. Luke’s Emergency room and was diagnosed of pancreatitis.  That same day, March 1, I was transferred to Medical City and a few days after, diagnosed of periampullary cancer.  Two years and I am still alive.  Thank God for keeping me alive this long!  Alleluia!!!  Alleluia!!!  :D

I’ve been absent from blogging.  My apologies.  :(   I’ve been having so much pain and even if my doctors increased the dosage for Oxycontin, I still feel such terrible pain.  True, I do feel groggy for most part of the time but the pain won’t go away.  Until last Tuesday, February 23, I felt this excruciating pain on my back, left part.  I was asked by my pain doctor, to have myself admitted at Makati Medical Center for observation.

I know.  Many of you are curious, why Makati Med (MMC)?  Well, I’ve transferred to a better pain management team.  :)   Actually, for me, they are the best.  ;)   My new pain doctor is Dr. Henry Lu, MD.  He holds clinic in both MMC and St. Luke’s Hospital at The Fort.  Jolly young doctor.  You won’t feel pain when he talks to you.  I am so glad I was recommended to transfer to him.

So, as my story continues…  I was admitted at MMC for observation.  Dr. Lu placed me on morphine drip to determine how much pain killer do I need per hour or per day.  For two days, I was asked to just press the ‘rescue button’ as it is called, whenever I feel pain or whenever I think that I will have pain.  In other words, I should be painless while I was on morphine drip inside the hospital.onmorphinedrip

Dr. Lu and his pain management team of nurses handled my case very well.  Jhoey, Raisa and Joan (the nurses) were more than helpful and they were available 24/7.  They responded immediately when I needed them and they were very ready to answer all my questions.  Not only that.  They answered my queries in a way that I will really understand them.  Most of all, they were so patient with me.  Great team.  If I were to grade them, it would be A+.  ;)   Oh yes, I cannot help but rave about them.  They are just so great!

Anyway, I went home last Friday with a morphine drip attached to my left arm.  Not through IV but subcutaneous (under my fats, whatever is left of it).  Dr. Lu finds it better for me to be on morphine drip because I use too much pain killers.  For now, I use 6mg/hr of morphine.  Everytime I press the rescue button, 4.5mg of morphine is instantly released.  I am allowed 4 rescues/hr and a 10min. interval between each rescue.

I am very much mobile.  As a matter of fact, I feel a bit stronger now since my pain is managed very well.  I am able to sit for a longer time, thus enabling me to do a bit more work.  Unfortunately though, the cold still triggers the pain so I try to keep my room in such a temperature where I don’t perspire and yet I don’t feel cold.  Yup!  My aircon has to do a bit of guessing when it comes to thermostat level.  ;)

So here I am, rockin’ and rollin’!  :)   Enjoying each day at a time.  I still have a lot more to update you with.  There has been so many changes in my life since November.  I still owe you the bile bag story.  Don’t worry, this time, I will stay true to my promise of blogging more often.  I can sit and face the computer a little while longer so I can write more stories.  :)   Yipee!!!

Well to you my blog readers, thank you for being patient with me and thank you for praying for and journeying with me for the past two years.  Imagine that?  God has kept me alive for two years!!!  Such grace!  Such mercy!  I am so grateful.  Deep, deep, deeper down in my heart.

Thank You, Lord Jesus!!!

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Living The Vida Loca

It was a crazy year,  2009.  From learning that cancer has made a wicked return to going through chemotherapy, radiation, herbal meds, increasing pain killer dosages and now, carrying a bile bag.  Oh yes, to those of you who don’t know yet, I now have a bile bag attached to my insides.  I’ve been out of the blogging loop lately and so one of these days, as I resolve to blog more often, I’ll tell you all about the bile bag story.

Anyway, yes it has been a crazy year.  But!  I lived through it!  Thank our good God!  He gave me the strength I need to battle all obstacles.  He sent people to me to visit me and encourage me.   He never forgot to provide me with the money I need for all my treatments and medicines.  He gifted me with kindhearted people who covered some of the large expenses.  He sent friends from all parts of my life to let me know that I am loved from way back then.  In my trying moments, He watched and helped me till I felt better.  He responded to a lot of my prayers of making the pain go away.  He gave me peace when I was filled with anxiety.  In all of 2009,  God was there… all the time.

I look at 2010 with full uncertainty.  True.  Only God knows what will happen to me.  I may live through the year or I may not.  It’s the ‘not’ part that sometimes scares me.  I may have to truly tell myself to live “One Day At A Time”.  Just as God has been good to me in 2009, I know He will be more gracious in 2010.  I know He’ll be closer, however that will be.  I don’t know how much time He’ll be giving me this 2010 but what I know is I do hope I will live my life to the fullest.  As the Psalmist said, “Teach me to number my days…”

Well, to you my blog readers, thank you for keeping me company for a full year.  Thank you for praying  for me.  Thank you for riding with me in this roller coaster ride and thank you for living the crazy life with me.  You have blessed me with your silence ;) and your comments.  I hope that I too have blessed you in some special way.

This 2010, I hope to be more of a blessing to you.  I hope to be able to leave  some kind of  legacy through blogging.    Yes, new year’s wishes.  It may be a crazy life but even so, I’d rather live it knowing that Jesus is by my side.  I wouldn’t have it any other way. :)

A Bountiful 2010 To You All.  God be with you!

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FOR SALE: PHOTOGRAPHY BOOKS

I’m starting to let go of some of my stuff.  I’m beginning with my photography books.  If this interests you, please pick one you would like to purchase then email me.

ALL BOOKS SLIGHTLY USED BUT GOOD AS NEW

1. Pricing Photography- The complete guide to assignment & stock prices. Third Edition – MICHAL HERON & DAVID MCTAVISH. Php900

2. Mastering Flash Photography – A Course in Basic to Advanced Lightning Techniques -SUSAN MCCARTNEY Php1000 SOLD

3. 2006 Edition- Photographer’s Market-Where & How to Sell Your Photographs- POEHNER Php900

4. The Complete Guide to Night & Low- Light photography – LEE FROST Php1200

5. Color Confidence- The Digital Photographer’s Guide to Color Management- TIM GREY Php1800

6. Understanding Exposure – How to Shoot Great photographs with a Film or Digital Camera – BRYAN PETERSON Php1000

7. The Complete Guide to Digital Color Correction – KATRIN EISMANN Php1500

8. Photoshop Restoration & Retouching- KATRIN EISMANN Php2000 SOLD

9. Digital Photography Special Effects- MICHAL FREEMAN Php1000

10. Professional Techniques for the Wedding Photographer-GEORGE SCHAUB Php1000

11. 50 Portrait Lighting Techniques- JOHN HART Php1000

12. Photo Portfolio Success- A Guide to Submitting & Selling your Photographs- JOHN KAPLAN (Pulitzer Prize-Winner) Php1300

13. Wedding Photography -Arts, Business & Style. Second Edition.- STEVE SINT Php600

14. The Best of Wedding Photojournalism- Techniques & Images from the Pros- BILL HURTER Php1200

15. Portrait photography – Secrets of Posing & lightning – MARK CLEGHORN Php1200

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